AT LAST

phew at last i m in my blogging area...it has been awhile, guess u guys might have notice...the last few weeks of 2005, my brains were bleeding wif words to jot in here, but i couldnt find time to even be in front of the pc.. i have actually started training in INTAN..so my current babble would be on the training itself

remember about the 'no comment' section? well, all this while, i thot, like i said 'no comment' is such an irrelevent answer for certain things, didnt i? for things u dont know, or to have exact answers la kan?.. however this is wat i learnt, in the govt u arent suppose to give ur opinion on certain matters even if u know anything about it..'no comment' should always be the syllables on your lips..actually esp when u r being asked by the public, or the media..

odd..how in the world can we 'young minds' work if the only thing u can say is no comment? watever happens to my wordy brains? when can i actually express my thots ? i dun get it..we r even taught to actually 'belajar memendam rasa'..this are the exact words of a superior..

ok fine,pendam rasa, but for how long? til one actually get promoted? n when can dat be? another 20 years? gesh, are we really encouraging everyone to be depressed and all that?

and another thing, all the speeches and lectures always includes some threat of some kind..like we r always being watched, n they know wat we do, n we always have to dress to kill, n bla bla bla..syikin couldnt agree at all to these things ( same here)..how could one dress all neat and 'killable' if u have to masuk kampung, n selesaikan masalah oang kampung n check out on soil matters n plants an all dat wif sharp, slick, berkilat fancy shoes? n wif baju kurung on the boat and all?
no wonder ppl always regards PTD as snobs..arent we suppose to dress accordingly?

argh, frankly frens,if u guys actually entered this service listening to these lectures and threats for days,weeks and months with an open mind, i can bet in no time we all would be 'brain washed'..gesh no wonder man...however, me n azni n shikin, as the rebellious lot, we always be arguing these agak2 ridiculous points out loud ( within 4 walls dat is :D )..well i am open minded, but i wouldnt wanna be a spongehead squarepants :P...

to ppl who is actually proud doing this job, or actually proud of the titles, im sure they'll be watever the superiors want them to be...rigid, firm, slick, smart, limited view, n bla bla bla...i'd rather be ADAPTABLE, APPROACHABLE, LOVABLE, LENIENT n the likes of it..hmmm...(thinking)

pray dat i wont change..if i ever change, it rather be for the better, not for worse..anyway i'll keep everyone updated (if given time dat is) on things i dont fancy (or maybe things i actually fancy in this training :P ie the military training, the police n the bomba heheh)

maybe its nothing, but well saje tak puas ati heheh...didnt i juz mention we were the rebellious lot? :P