Marriage

i wonder why it is so 'in' to take marriages lightly.

i wonder why people no longer recognize the sacredness of such ceremony. i think marriages have lost its meaning when people no longer regard it as a sacred institution.

i am not here to preach. am just here to share my thoughts on what i perceive of marriage. i wouldn't mind if a person couldn't work his or her marriage out because it was not on consensus between both parties. now what i can't digest at all are those people who marry each other out of love that wouldn't mind sacrificing a wee bit of trust just for the sake of shortlived thrills and excitements.

open minded though i am, i think i couldn't comprehend infidelities. i am not saying that i am all saint and religious, but i am just so sad that some people take their marriages lightly. and when ugly situation arises in future, you just wouldn't know what to do with life and start regretting every bit of your lust.

i think one should know if one is seriously ready into being tied up to a commitment of a lifetime. perhaps just to spice up some life in you, flirting is indeed agreeable. but infidelities .. gosh! why put yourself into some misery of weddings and ceremonies only to have it abandon later and to be regarded as petty, unimportant, to have it sidelined.

if you think you have a lot more things to achieve and to do and to excite yourself in whatever adventures or sexual thrills that u would want to experience, try not to get married too soon. . owh, unless you don't regard your marriage as sacred,try not to break another heart that has tied to yours and jeopardise the whole holy ceremony and family institutions.

and please don't drag me along as an alibi, just because i am single and carefree , because i don't exactly share the same sentiment. thank you.

situation

i don't know.

i am not too sure if i am alright or if i am not.

frankly, i am just bored. i think when i feel bored, i tend to be quiet and i would not even try to engage on any type of conversation with anyone, unless someone starts talking to me. otherwise, i wouldn't mind not talking or doing anything together.

however, to some friends, by me being quiet, they think i am in a bad mood. it is not exactly bad mood, but i just don't have any. i was just trying to stay alive. do nothing. just breathing. and observing.

perhaps it is my PMS (see how often i blame PMS? LOL)

anyway, perhaps i have a lot in my mind that i don't think appropriate to let it out either. so, by keeping mum about it, it sure has disabled me from communicating too much.

but then i broke someone's heart yesterday. well Nini wouldn't agree to this statement. she thinks (and maybe i have to concur) that the guy did this to himself. so, it was not entirely my fault that i somewhat crushed/grind/mashed his heart to pieces. am sorry but i seriously didn't have much patient when he dillydally-ied around pavilion.

nevertheless, i have to admit, joining some other friends who i don't see often last night was indeed refreshing. at least, i felt that i was in the right company. they made me feel good. they talked about real things. interesting things. issues. books. magazines. games. books. movies. books. books. ok ok i know u got my point now. hahaha.

right now, i don't know what i feel. i just know that i have a lot of things to do. so many things to read. not only reading the books i want to, but there is this upcoming UNSC simulation, and then there is the 'How Global Financial Crisis affects Malaysia' Friday Morning session, and then there is the upcoming trips, and then the presentation of our assignment, and then persembahan in your third language. so tell me, banyak kan things for me to read right now. and i have to admit, i have at least 10 new books that can last me 8 months (if deducted from the rate i am going right now. huhu)

that's the reason why i hate people dillydallying. sbb saya ada banyak benda nak baca ni. heheh.

ok la. talk cock later. i think i might terjun kolam for the moment.

owh btw, did i tell u that just by swimming in the pool you might just feel that you are in space?
will share that with u guys later la.

pls stay friends with me ;)

US presi-den-cy

damn. last week's topic for our journal was 'who do u think is the next US president and why?'

being the ignorant me, i just couldn't care less la kan about who is the next US president. and obviously it was portrayed in my writings about it. after all, it is my BLOODY journal. big deal if i say the real truth. why fake it. why must i act like i m dead smart and write a bloody smart journal on this issue.

and i have this cikgu who find it disturbing that me, being the so-called future "dip**mat", wouldnt care less about the world power?

isn't this my journal and i should be able to write whatever i think? lain la if it is an essay that i need to submit for markings.

gua bengang mcm lahanat ni. US presi-den-cy whatshit could kiss my *** ops, i mean my teacher. whatever la kan. now i cant sleep sbb gua bengang. damn shit.

confession part ke 18 juta

since this is my blog, i have the right to have as much confession as i want to. kan? kan?

i have to admit that i am jealous of the lelaki-yang-saya-ingat-buahhati-saya-tapi-saya-mungkin-bukan-buahhati-dia. i saw the messages left by his exgf on facebook. damnshit sungguh.

i told Burn about it. and funny enough he had to remind me that well, i am too, one of his exgf now and i still write messages to him. damnshit again.

so, i have just deduced that perhaps i am plainly jealous of everything. i am the jealous kinda type now. shit. do i really need to confess?

hahaha. bodo la aku ni. dah la lelaki harapan saya ada gf, bekas lelaki bukan harapan saya pula baik dgn exgf. terencat akal ok. huhu. owh tp the first issue was merely disappointment, that was not jealousy. or was it?

okla, dah abis confess. perasaan pon dah hilang. gila sengal budak ni. ha ha. i have all the president's men to share the bed with me tonight. ;)