family crises

am listening to a girlfren's complicated family life..am soooo sad..i wish i could help..but i juz dunno where to start..is it enuf juz to lend my ears?

her mum remarries after few years of "widowing" (is there such a word? hmm). apparently now the step-dad has full control over her mum, n mum has actually disowns her own sister..juz bcoz the step dad says so..and to add to it, the sister is actually pregnant now. and all she does now is crying.

and her real dad was trying to get to her mum to actually explain the situation, but was ignored..none of the calls nor texts were replied or attended to (to which i suggested to write a letter instead)

frens, i m juz summarizing the situation here.it's more complicated than words could explain.

at this point, i m grateful that my family is if i might say 'normal'..i mean there are ups and downs in every family, i cant deny that, but to have waves all your live would somehow dispirits oneself.

i m glad that my GIRLFREN is a strong girl, and it seems unlikely someone as strong as her would come out from such problematic cocoon.

frankly, i knew her mum, she is alright. but i suppose she must have real issues with her elder daughter.therefore, even the slightest mistake would now stir her unstable emotions.

girl, if u happen to read this, i m not criticizing ur mum, but i wish i could do something.
if only she could realize the whole situation..
if only she could be talked into solving it..
if only she could see how u girls wanted to make amends..
if only she tries to be herself again..

that particular reason

after talking to shake on the fon (btw, shake is not someone around me.. :P) yesterday, i do realize for a fact, my blog seems to discuss on very light stuffs..and other than that, i'm a different kind of chatter when i'm on the fon :)

anyway, too many questions answered (and i did apologize for my very elaborate explanation), one thing had strucked my mind..

the very reason why i really dont fancy talking on the fon to some ppl, and some ppl, i do..

i realize that ppl who has known me in person, wont chat much on the fon..unless to gossip la kan..i rarely have serious discussions on the fon wif nuz, azni, nico and tazril (jus to name a few)..

now, unlike chinpeng (my very shortlived bf), we used to talk nonsense on the fon.we knew each other thru a fren, and basically we knew each other for 4 years now. but since i dont really have any personal meetings with this guy, we never discussed anything very serious..the most is he listens to me grumbling about my then bf la kan..

ok,so once we were actually dating, i find his conversation no longer amusing..his jokes are pretty hard on me, and it's over-played dat i m getting tired of it.when i actually wanted to discuss anything serious, he seemed to lose it..we juz couldnt connect.

now it's obvious that u can talk rubbish on the fon, esp to ppl who wouldnt wanna connect to u.nonsense seems to be a very general topic. and it doesnt need one to think too hard about it. it's something that comes out easily, esp for me, for i'm so known to be a chatterbox..LOL

do u guys feel the same way?

i realized all this when i discussed it over again with nico..he's a great conversationalist..but then, he's totally lousy on the fon. he sounded like he rather not be talking to me at all..i used to 'bebel' at him for not being a good chatter on the fon, and in the end, i spent my time and dad's money over the fon chatting wif whoever listens to my nonsense..

and even wif my dad..i'd have a great conversation only if i talk to him in person.we'll talk bout everything..about people, attitudes, the world, religions and stuffs..but for me to call him juz to membebel over something dat juz happens to me, he juz wouldnt know wat to say..pep talk is something that my mum's good at :)

i realize that i dont fancy talking anything serious on the fon, unless for consultation purposes (ie to zati, or aina)..

hmm do u guys notice that?

or maybe i m juz being a typical gemini actually? (that i can adapt to wateva type of conversation? :P)

thanx shake for making it a point for me to ponder..and peeps, do me a favor.pls send in ur comments on it.i hope i did struck a point..

Facts OF The Day

#1 i got something to do in the office (at last!)

#2 me n azni are basically in the 'hardcore' poor zone..:D (issit our lifestyle or issit the 'kemut' govt? huhuh)

#3 mr F is a bad-ass bast**d

#4 i'm (always) interested in the wrong kinda guy.beats me why...

#5 nobody seems to be satisfied with the 'cemerlang' people on DPA convo last tuesday..

#6 life is obviously unfair

#7 hey, that MITI guy is adooooooooooooorable :P (and yes azni, i meet cute n adorable people everyday..hahah)

'Mona'-lisa Smile

this is a tribute to the coolest makcik that i've juz named as our President of the Chicks United....she aint ur typical makcik...

those in favor of her, swing your asses, girls!! ;)
i'll count them out on one of our upcoming ladies nite aite? huhu
(when is dat gona happen?--->wishing!!)

if anyone needed tips on anything in this world, be it dating, shopping, men, fashion, lifestyle...she is the GURU, peeps!! (ironic! coz she is ONE :P~)

*click on the pic for another pic..hehe..

that day ayien was here

the day ayien was here, was the day i anticipated a cool lepak2 nite out with her..and it ended up with another 4 more cool companies dat nite (eventho some ppl are juz party poopers)

anyways, since d last time we met, n that was last year in klia, it seems dat the both of us have been missing so much in our lives.. be it about our family, new friends, lifestyle, new crush, the commitment-free ideas..haha so many things..

phew! i actually typed so many things, but it seems the whole thing has no direction..:P so i decided on putting pictures instead..

ppl, i m trying to portray that we were actually having fun chatting 4 hours straight despite kudus hinting the clock at midnite..

anyway from left is napi, azmal, at the back is kudut, me and ayien..n the photographer is kudus..man, u actually have really cool housemates..where in the world did u keep these people? :P

anyway as for azmal and kudut, to make the world really small, are frens of fisha.(my best bud back in skool)..and fisha once mentioned about these guys' band 'Plague of happiness'..and udin once mentioned i think..n during rock the world 6, me n fisha were practically dancing to it..hmm come to think of it, it could be udin i think..gosh, my memories are depleting okaaaay?

actually frens, i typed so many things b4, dat after posted it on the blog, half of it was gone..so im kinda malas to type more, so i juz hope u guys get wat im trying to say..

----> conclusion...me, udin, ayien, azmal and kudut hails from JOHOR!!
and fisha , is considered half-johorean as he has wasted half of his current lifetime in the streets of JB :D

*more pics, click on the pic..more of 'plague', click on it as well ;)

13th September of this year

In Detail
Muster some hope right now -- after all, there are so many good reasons to think positively. If you just stop and let life happen around you, you should be able to sense a new beginning coming. That will give you the confidence to move in a new direction and take a few more chances. Risk is not something you should be afraid of. In fact, if you add a bit more insecurity to your life, you'll get some inspiration that could lead you down a very exciting path..

my horoscope today seems very promising. i cant deny i m looking forward for so many things. (note:looking fwd means things i got to and want to do :P)..my postcards project, my conquests ;), meeting the person that i fancy the way he wears his jeans (mum would know why heheh), my swimming, my all-girls-vacations (note the plural)...

and apart from that, meeting all my girlfrens for a lot of weird reasons

* their sexcapades..they want me to write bout it..hehe
* their manhunt results
* their sudden feelings of jealousy
* their new pregnancy..
* their new house..
* their cool guy frens to be introduced to me..yay!!

haha..7 days a week is juz not enuf. 24hours with a third of it going to a very unproductive work too doesnt help :D

wat i need is the whole time wif the whole lot of different characters-and-wants girlfrens so dat i can outline things one by one..heheh

i think that would be good. Pn Mona, the senior hot hoochie mama should be the president of The Chicks United..;)

girls, and guys alike..wait till i post this newly elected president's picture sooon..u guys would agree to me to have her as the president ..

heheh..

now i'm looking forward in creating this club..see?!

today's horoscope

Your external and internal worlds are at odds right now ... so don't be surprised if you aren't quite sure whether you want to go out and paint the town red tonight or stay in bed and dig into a long, elaborate novel. If you can get yourself out in public, try to do that. That would be the wiser choice. Being alone may bring you comfort right now, but being among people will feed your soul in a very rewarding way. Sometimes you need to pop out of your shell whether you want to or not.

---well, even the horoscope portrays my mind right now :P..the problem of hanging out usually it would be the company..hmmm..ha! maybe that would mean irene kot.since she is coming later this evening for her interview in SPA tomorrow...yaye..guess we have tonnes to catch up..

anyway, nuz juz called this office juz to ask me what was i up to last sunday..and we chatted away telling each other about crushes we r having right now.. n since the things that are happening around us are waaaaaaay too similar, she wanted me to actually talk about it in my blog..

well, i wish i could, but i would sound so vain , wouldnt i? ( yeah shake.. i see u smiling..haha)..

frankly speaking, sometimes it kills me waiting for a person who juz aint gona call. and most times ,even after deciding not to call, i would actually give a buzz
coz i'm juz in a very good mood. i juz wont take it to my heart if the person is either didnt pick up the fon, or is basically detached from the fon (yeah azni.. i meant YOU!! hehe)

but at times, when i'm juz moody, i would feel really crappy if nobody's picking up the fon..and always i would have nuz to bitch to..haha..(and if it's azni who is not picking up the fon, i would bitch dat to lily..:P)

so peeps (esp nuz) if u feel like calling a fren up, make sure u r in a great mood, so dat if he juz doesnt pick up ur fon, u wont feel too bad, and obviously u would call me later..haha

guess i m already good at that..the secret is,
have loadsa crush..ahahahahahhahahahahahah
u would end up calling everyone in the world ;)

cheers, girls!!

my promises to the world--revised

do u guys remember the entry i posted once in november regarding the promise i made?
the one dat states dat i wont change after that intan training?

well, i juz wanna tell all of u dat i still havent change..

* i still am gonna lepak MAMAK after DPA-->i still do..but not much.slightly selective after reading the mails regarding mamaks
* i still am gonna wear jeans the way i always wear it..i mean my torn jeans are as much loved as my other jeans..:)--> i do, but not much event to wear them these days. i dun have much activities these days
* i still be as talkative, cheerful (ewah) , n frenly as always-->so me , so me...
* still gonna lepak wif my mates, skoolmates (jumy,shaq,nini,huda n the rest), my UM mates, OU mates, in short all my mates la..-->yup..still do
* still gonna drive badly n curse as much as i want (well, not much of a curser, but aint much of a decent driver either..hehe)-->is an attitude that i guess i grew up with..errr i mean the bad driving skills..not cursing la :D
*still gona wear snickers like i always do ..anywhere appropriate la kan..heels? i'll consider dat some other time :D-->i still hate heels..if not snickers, i'm always in my maryjane ;)
* still gona be wacko n rational n i hope i can still joke as much as i always do..and maybe better in taking advices, offences,insults n remarks ..-->i guess i do..i'm more open these days i guess.exc when i'm having my period..LOL..(nuz, azni..u guys know better haha)
* still gonna attend gigs , clubs (i hope they dont forbid that) n live shows like i normally do..(which basically not very often..yeah..right!!) heheh-->ha, this is one thing i tot i no longer do, but it seems i cant avoid it..love it still..i was basically dancing when i was being conceived.thanx mum, dad!! (btw, thanx azni for entertaining my grammar check..huhu)

all in all, i'm still the same for good reasons..nuz, does this satisfy u? hahah well peeps, it was nuz who reminds me to do this checklist ;)

amending my previous post

my post regarding meeting new people anywhere should by now be don't meet any DANGEROUS new ppl anywhere..

frens, dont try that on the road..

there's something about malay mentality dat strucks them by thinking friendly malay ladies are easy lays..

that is one point..the other is, why do i always attract perverts?

(talking bout pervert, i remembered asking haslina to describe them to me...hehe..bas, u remember those days b4 we land ourselves in UM?)

obviously now i know how they look like...they look and sound stupid..

Make new friends anywhere!!

And I really mean anywhere..

here's my recollection ;)

Saturday...
I just got back from Perak. Right after that, it was to Midvalley to shop for kain baju raya. Then off to SK, n parents of to Johor. Once they r there, they’ve got to realize the kain wasn’t in the car. So mum called me up marah2 ask me to rush to MV there n then
(so, my dancing plan was aborted)

Frankly, I drove recklessly, like any bloody driver from hell. With me sulking, swearing every single car that seems not to notice that I was speeding like a bullet.

It so happened that there is this one white Kancil (kancil is one of the national car, for those who doesn’t know) try to outsmart me by overtaking the car before me when obviously I was on the fast lane. So I high-beamed the bloody car. And of course, not to forget to curse. I was like ‘can’t u see that I’m trying to kill myself? Get away!!!!’ (well, maybe not exactly that, but u know wat I mean :P)

So after overtaking the car, I was looking or basically glaring at the driver who acted indifferently and didn’t bother to look at me at all.. bloody!! had to admit the driver was kinda cute, but hey, I’m totally pissed off so I can’t be entertaining my feelings..haha

Anyway, at that very minute, we started the F1-circuiting. Me being angry, n him maybe being an egoist, were basically trying to ramp each other’s bumper. Apart from racing each other on different lanes la kan.. madness!!

Ok, as always, to cut the chase short, exactly at hospital serdang, I slowed down hoping to mutter "YOU BLOODY FOOL!!!" right to his face errr…car I mean, but only to responded by a huge smile ….argh, I had to laugh!! I was being angry n he wasn’t a bit annoyed at all..so I had to smile back ;) darn!

So fine, at the traffic light, he actually talked to me by asking wat was I speeding for? Girls don’t really speed on the road u know..and I could only answered ‘biasalah’?!!

Frankly people, I was totally embarrassed coz I was really being rude on the road and this guy could actually be nice to me? Huhuh

Anyway, after Sg Besi toll, he dared driving really close to my car, and drop or issit throw, or flip (argh, wateva..) his business card right into my window…is this macho or wat?!! :D

Wow, I never expected I could actually make friends while being angry n while speeding my car off to the outer space..

Girls, frankly, u can meet guys anywhere.. :D despite them being at the brink of extinction…