dear ex boyfriend

my dear ex boyfriend,

do u remember the time at the park one night, one indian guy came to rob us and we were running as fast as we could and u were bleeding from ur head? u got knocked by the indian guy with a pipe, and u were almost unconscious? do u remember that it was me who went to my hostel and get u water so that u wont feel dehydrated and running out of blood? it was me that called my cousin to send u off to the emergency unit? do u remember my cousin running to my hostel getting my tee from my locker for u to change in the waiting room? do u remember that time it was me who cleaned ur blood up all over ur face, all over ur head? it was me in the operation theater companying u while the guy was stitching ur head?

do u remember bcoz of that, u broke ur middle finger and had to undergo physio? and everyday after class i'd walk to the hospital coz i couldnt get a bus during lunch? n i was there bathing u for u couldnt wash ur head? do u remember that i wash ur shirt and my bag coz it was all full of blood and it took me several washings to get it clear?

dear ex boyfriend,
do u remember that day when ur lecturer recommended u to change course and uni, and it was me who accompanied u to ur new campus for registration? do u remember that we were both broke and we had to share that taxi fare and make sure it was within our budget? do u remember when u had to get a new shoe for u had no proper shoe in this new campus, so we had to get a very cheap snickers from the shoe store? and in the end after a few years when u can afford better shoes, u told me that snickers was ugly and u never liked it?

dear ex boyfriend,
do u remember those days when at last my mum allowed me to drive the car to campus, every other day i would be seeing u in ur college and studied with u and i'll be driving back to my campus alone at nite? do u remember each time i got back from my mum's, i'd be driving straight to ur college instead of going to my campus first?

dear ex boyfriend,
do u remember the times when u cant afford a Mac, and i lent u my laptop like forever juz to help u to get ur assignments done? and i dont mind for not using it at all coz i didnt see any need for me, despite u using it to watch movies?

dear ex boyfriend,
do u remember the time when u had to work at some convenient store, and i actually took the bus juz to accompany u till u finish work the next morning? and i didnt mind waiting in the freezing store for u.

dear ex boyfriend,
i never thot i would actually write this all out, but each time when u treated my like shit, i wish i could say all this to u. i m still human, even if i'm no longer ur girlfriend.i dont need no shit from u.

if only u would realize that i still do care, and i still would be around like i always do each time u needed my company or my help or whatever..

if only u remembered those hard times we went through together..

if only u never thought u r so great, u r beyond everybody's reach..

if only, dear...if only..