stuck

i cant even decide what's the title for today's blog. i m kinda stuck on the title itself. anyways, i got a handful of stuffs to be done today. well, at least i want to make it done by today. like always. cheh.

i really wanted to tell u guys of what had happened the past few days, but the thing is i rather not be thinking of it right now. apart from my anger has subsided, i m juz lazy thinking of the things that i cant correct anymore. so, let's put our mind into something else.

like always, i feel like i have so many things to rant about. but i juz cant talk much bout it. they are basically series of questions i love asking.

well for instance, asking people whether they are missing us or not. do we really want to know, or issit juz another question in hoping at least they are actually thinking of us. or maybe telling them we missed them. but how much is that? and do u really mean it? and will it dampens our mood if they were not missing us at the same time?

or asking things like what have u been up to? are we actually ready listening to what issit the person is up to for the whole week, or month, or the whole year? or as the person itself, do u bother answering these questions? from one friend maybe, but if the whole planet wanted to know, do u really fancy answering them? (hmm therefore, u blog instead :P)

do we ever realize that most things we said are things we dont really mean it?

is it possible to undo things u've said? or decided? is it ok to be indecisive? would it hurt anyone around u or maybe u urself?

pain inflicted by one own's decision are usually tolerable. thanks to our own egos. Ego has its way to lick our wounds.

but to people? to friends? can we actually say sorry to them? meant it and move on?

i guess, it all depends on what is at stake. the weight of the sorry would depend on it. the penalty of being indecisive would depend on it..too.

well, i am sorry for being indecisive today.

thanks for reading til the end anyway.