situation

i don't know.

i am not too sure if i am alright or if i am not.

frankly, i am just bored. i think when i feel bored, i tend to be quiet and i would not even try to engage on any type of conversation with anyone, unless someone starts talking to me. otherwise, i wouldn't mind not talking or doing anything together.

however, to some friends, by me being quiet, they think i am in a bad mood. it is not exactly bad mood, but i just don't have any. i was just trying to stay alive. do nothing. just breathing. and observing.

perhaps it is my PMS (see how often i blame PMS? LOL)

anyway, perhaps i have a lot in my mind that i don't think appropriate to let it out either. so, by keeping mum about it, it sure has disabled me from communicating too much.

but then i broke someone's heart yesterday. well Nini wouldn't agree to this statement. she thinks (and maybe i have to concur) that the guy did this to himself. so, it was not entirely my fault that i somewhat crushed/grind/mashed his heart to pieces. am sorry but i seriously didn't have much patient when he dillydally-ied around pavilion.

nevertheless, i have to admit, joining some other friends who i don't see often last night was indeed refreshing. at least, i felt that i was in the right company. they made me feel good. they talked about real things. interesting things. issues. books. magazines. games. books. movies. books. books. ok ok i know u got my point now. hahaha.

right now, i don't know what i feel. i just know that i have a lot of things to do. so many things to read. not only reading the books i want to, but there is this upcoming UNSC simulation, and then there is the 'How Global Financial Crisis affects Malaysia' Friday Morning session, and then there is the upcoming trips, and then the presentation of our assignment, and then persembahan in your third language. so tell me, banyak kan things for me to read right now. and i have to admit, i have at least 10 new books that can last me 8 months (if deducted from the rate i am going right now. huhu)

that's the reason why i hate people dillydallying. sbb saya ada banyak benda nak baca ni. heheh.

ok la. talk cock later. i think i might terjun kolam for the moment.

owh btw, did i tell u that just by swimming in the pool you might just feel that you are in space?
will share that with u guys later la.

pls stay friends with me ;)