Thursday, February 07, 2008

past 6 hours

for the past 6 hours, i actually hate myself.

for the past 6 hours, i actually let myself be stupid

for the past 6 hours, i was faking it.

for the past 6 hours, i did nothing to help myself.

for the past 6 hours, i pray to God for his speedy reply.

for the past 6 hours, i have yet to get His reply.

for the past 6 hours, i promised myself to pray harder to God.

for the past 6 hours, i thought God must have forgotten about me when he just let me be.

for the past 6 hours, i realized all the meaningless things i've done for the past 227760 hours.

it was indeed some crucial 6 hours. 6 hours of short, quick, concise, mindboggling, heartbreaking, annoying realization.

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

six hours? what could last 6 hours? lamanya...

Anonymous said...

what actually happen la adek?

thinker bell said...

ki: so many things could last for 6 hours. some dates gone wrong, some fights with mum, some socializing circle gone bad. byk perkara. but mine was 1 perkara.

azni : something happened. and i seriously hated myself for it.

ina said...

what happened?

Anonymous said...

Gua ingat lu nyanyi lagu ayam maidin asik 666 ajer :D heh

Apa pun masaelahnya atau pun takde masaelah mmg pun kena pray harder to God kan?

thinker bell said...

bro: letih i digest apekobondo la ayam maidin, rupe2nye iron maiden. hahahahampes.

saya setuju. harusla pray harder to god, with or without probs. :"> malu lak rase. huhu

Anonymous said...

losing 26 years over 6 hours of realizations only make things the way they do.

ignorance is not bliss.

thats why we are who we are anyway.
its ridiculous if people say they live without regrets. I think with regrets, we are traumatized enough to remember , to change, to improve, and to realize that even if we try the best that we can, mistakes are almost always mandatory to occur. And it is no ones fault that regrets come along with effort. And it appears only when we fail.

Thats why i never stop regretting :)

thinker bell said...

"Pain is temporary, it may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever. "[54]

indeed i have found the number 54. thank you. so true.

i should be writing more about this la kot. this is interesting, no? hehe.