the entry of 'the past 6 hours' was totally about regret. about situations that i have no control of. or situations where i didn't exercise any control. situations that i anticipated mistakes and later regrets.
apparently , i have the tendency to allow myself to repeat the same mistake over and over again, and have cumulate my number of regrets. in some ways, that would actually portray how petty the mistake was to me, and i allow it to happen because i know i can live with the pain that comes with it.
and that can't be true. coz when i am hurt, i am hurt. i'm dishearten by it. it's just that i didn't want to drag it. i decided to put a stop to it. hence see it in a lighter way. like it didn't matter. like i didn't care.
when the truth is , i bloody cared. i bloody cried. i was bloody furious. or whatever feelings that i felt that time.
well, maybe mistakes are mandatory, but not the same ones. not the same thing, the same event. the same person. that is total insanity. that's plain crazy. that's sheer stupidity.
some said live life without regret. but that cannot happen. i just have to live with regrets so that i would change whatever i need to change. to make life better. to avoid calculated mishaps. to avoid the same devil behind different faces. my same old same old enemy.
so that i won't scar my knees on the same terrain.
5 comments:
Tahap super saiya rupanya entry 666 lu. Sorry lar gua buat lawak pulak masa komen.. sure lu sengal!
Gua tak ingat gua jumpa kat mana; "Ppl make mistakes, I create disaster"
Pada gua ppl make the same mistakes coz they need to learn better. Tapi lu lain sket (actually lu lain banyak lol!) sebab brainer cam lu yg makan maths, tido maths, maybe lu make the same mistakes bcoz lu tak caya it was a mistake at the first time, so you do it again maybe just to check & again another round to confirm it as a mistake :| heh
Living without regret is impossible. But whats possible is learning how to deal with that regret [anonymous]
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bro anon:
i tak sengal pon. i like the idea people see my entries differently. it's totally open to opinions. i mean esp those vague entries of mine. :D
47:
my chin is already up. but my shoulders are by now killing me and begging me to stop typing and get some sleep. hehe. matlamat asal to sleep around 11 today. la ni dah 12.30am. sengal gile.
bro:
eh, i tak tido maths makan maths la ,sengal. do u actually mean that i sound like an alien by telling me gua lain banyak? LOL.
anyway, i like the part that u reasoned out why i do mistakes repetitively. ada la kebenaran in your statement. i partly agree to that.
ppl make mistakes, i create disaster sounds really familiar. tp dimanakah?
beb, takdelah sampai lu cam alien. Maksud (mungkin gua silap) lu cam tengok/hayati sesuatu/situasi tu dari sisi/perpektif yg berbeza. Takyah elaborate lah kots rasanya lu faham kots maksud gua :)
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