rembau

owh well, what the hell am i doing here at 3 in the morning? i seriously find a hard time sleeping of late. maybe i need some company. LOL. anyways i do have one now, shikin is here for her exams tomorrow. so i rather not keep her awake.

i just finished watching 'death sentence' , sebuah cerita penuh darah dan emosi. like azni said, emogore. LOL. plenty of loose ends, but of course that is not the real reason for making that movie. they just wanted to show loads of gunshots and gun wounds and slit throats and blood blood blood.

tomorrow me and azni and taz (and another fellow fren yg i dont quite recall. heh, keji ke ek?) are heading to rembau. to be brainwashed. for 5 days, we need to be the best citizen on earth. we gonna fake our answers. we gonna trick their minds into believing us that we believed them. that we are already cleansed by words. owh i so cant wait to do those tricks. like we always did. each time we attend these kinda sessions. are we too smart, or are they too naive? or are we too naive that they are actually smart? and they actually know that we were just being kids and silly? haha. ntah.

anyway, that couldn't be the thing that am looking forward to. well who in their right mind is looking forward for a 5-day-brainwashing-course? the thing i look forward to is actually meeting friends. the same cool company i had a year and a half ago. with silly attitudes. with sleepy heads on their shoulders. with lazy cheeks on their bums.

and most of all, am looking forward to be my ex-roommate roommate again. the only person i laughed with, before sleeping, and after waking up. the only person i laughed with all the way to the field early in the morning when everybody else's throat are still dry. and we were laughing all throughout our exercise. and some hated us for being chirpy. some knew us before even seeing our noses. some loved us for being happy fools despite we rarely talk to the others pon. everyone else wanted to talk to us, then. haha. they wanted our youth. and our ignorance. and our fun. and our vibe. pergh, i talk like as if i'm in love. LOL. am a fu*king lesbo. ops. no offence. my orientation is still straight. but i love being around this girl. this woman. this kakak. who in the end becomes everybody's kakak. no thanks to me.

i can't wait to talk to her in person. just so you guys know, it's 3.19 am and yes, she is still awake and waiting for this blog to materialize. like as if we aren't going to see each other tomorrow. see each other in 4 hours time. wow, this is too much. confusing no? LOL.

ok. i love this woman. perempuan who has tonnes of hobbies, just like me. tonnes of ideas, just like me. tonnes of books un-attended, just like me.

yeah. and you know it's you that i am talking about. azn-i. i bet you gonna sleep tonight with a smile on your face and a bloated heart. Love you too. ;)