Friday, August 01, 2008

life : private and public

yesterday, two friends were telling me about their career, whatever working life they have. a fellow friend, a future ambassador somehow was having doubts if this is the life he wanted. he realized that it was too much to juggle. his family and his working career. he was just asking me if all this hard work actually mean anything. would it pay? he was contemplating on being a trainer for he is used to becoming a teacher in his previous life. hehe.

so i asked him, so what happen to you, [insert name] the ambassador? what happen to your dreams. and he said that now he realized why in WP there are plenty of divorcees and singles. and i said, wouldn't that make u a better man if u could defy all that? not to be included in the stereotypes. and that made him ponder a little while.

and me too. i was thinking then, what is that last line, last straw that made u decide that this is not it. that u got to move on, to leave, to change. and at which point do you know this is the right decision. after thinking of my past experiences of the worst department ever i've worked in, i realized there would come to a point that you know that this is not it. but most times, circumstances won't allow u to do anything about it.

but then again, you got to look for the opportunity, like all the time. but in my case, the opportunity comes when i was not on my feet. anyway, my point is, it's hard to tell if a decision is the right one. u got to make it right then [after deciding, i mean]

but if u were to ask me if this job was the right decision i made, i can't be sure about it myself. coz the first 2 and a half years, i just can't wait to leave the job. i got the wrong people around me. after moving to two cool departments on earth, i realized i could work with this new set of people. that with the right mindset, and the right people, i now have made this job right for me. no?

despite working in the public sector, it hasn't hamper my private life at all. i mean, the life and the circle of friends i have before joining this service is still there, my friends are still checking on my sanity and well-being. and life is more than just administrative/governmental job.

after typing for so long, now am not sure, what was it i wanted to talk about. [typical of me!] but anyway, just to share my thoughts on this career decision-making thingy, i guess u can never tell if the decision is the best, until u decided to pursue. and then, face the consequences of the decisions u made. and be a man about it.

cheers!

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