enlightening

i was out, to ttdi the other day. meeting imran, that studio owner. repairing my stuff. waited for naim to come along. and so we chat. first over my gadgets, and its inconsistencies.

done that, we were on some good topics. music especially. genres, malaysian scene, musical fashion sense, musicians idiosyncracies. then to life. somewhere around those music-talk, naim walked in. throwing in some youthful thoughts. imran sounds older. matured. ripen through experience.

life, in length, till shadows fall in the room. over our faces. we talked about life. materials that made life. and basically living with(out) it. without materials, contentment. i was impressed. i was ashamed. slightly, of myself. more to the world.

we talked about education. free education. parallel thoughts, but different views. different approaches. again, felt small. i was ashamed. imran's free education was wide and varied and pure. purist of free education. mine? i was (or maybe still am) an opportunist.

so much so, i left the place feeling enlightened. i cant wait to do my part. i wouldnt know what, but i know something needs to be done.

i am ok, i come to realize i am so ok, but i need to be better. someone's already on a better par. non materially better. i want to be that. i am driven, yet content.

ashamed. but satisfied. impressed. enlighten.