salvatore ferragamo

gosh it has been ages. well at least it feels like ages. i havent jot anything in this blog of mine. well, not that i m busy or anything like that, it's just that i am too lazy or tired to be blogging. and apart from that, i was not even sure of which issue should i be discussing even in this entry.

anyway, i got to say what has been bugging me. i am off late easily irritated with life. but i rather not bitch, coz i'd like to think that there must be something good that will come out from all of this. was it murphy's law, that whatever can go wrong, will go wrong?

the other day, shake did ask me if there's any life-changing experience that i'm going through, and i said nothing. nothing at all. nothing has changed. or so i thought. or maybe that's the only thing i wanted him to know. coz i was just lazy to think. whether i am experiencing any changes at all. and i tried to convince him that i haven't changed. not a bit. not at all.

but now, yeah, actually i experienced some changes. i almost thought i hate changes. i denied when shake told me that i was somewhat a changed person, despite he was just pulling my legs. (well, not sure about that though). come to think of it, a lil bit of my life or routine has changed. not exactly proud of it, but i give so much thought on the consequences of things if i were to pursue what ever my impulse leads me to. some friends would notice that i DO act on impulse. i think it's thrilling to do things unexpectedly. but more often than not, it'd only land me on some problems. big or small is besides the point though. but it will lead to some complications. always. i rather not think that i am a trouble maker, but obviously i am a risktaker. petty risks too sometimes.

i guess in some ways, changes are inevitable. age-ing could be the cause of it, but i'd say experiences would be THE reason for changes. i know, one cant be too careful in order to live life, but nevertheless, constant vigilance pays in the long run, no?

if i were to share every single story i have right now, gosh i know i'll be typing entries the whole night, so i rather sum them all up into this. this directionless entry. after all, that's the real reason of the existence of this blog. for me to just ramble and branch whatever thoughts i have, and most of the time goes off nowhere and somewhat merepek meraban.

before i end this tonight, i just need to confess that right about now, there's someone that i am missing so badly, that it causes so much heartache, but for the time being, i rather not give in. no, totally not my ego talking, but am just bored of being nice. biarla, malas nak layan. (hehe i know azni, u musti malas nak dengar dah. LOL)